Entries by Amanda Waggener

Anxiety Attack Epiphany

A few days ago, first thing in the morning, I had my first ever anxiety attack.  I was sitting on the couch, eating my breakfast and watching the local news when my heart began racing. The Fitbit I was wearing on my wrist clocked that my heartrate jumped from 57 bpm to 189 in a […]

Outwardly Calm, Inwardly Turbulent

Outwardly calm, inwardly turbulent.  I took this pic from the window of an airplane yesterday. It was a beautiful, mild, spring day with blue skies and a spackling of fluffy white clouds. The sky looked calm and peaceful, yet the flight was riddled with turbulence. We were instructed by the pilot to stay buckled up […]

No Thanks I’m Just Not Interested

No thanks. I don’t want to join your Body Pump Class. I appreciate you thinking of me though. I’m sure it’s great. You’re great. I’m just not interested. I’m cool with yoga only because, for the most part, people keep their eyes closed in a meditative state and aren’t judging me for my middle-aged-mom-of-two-lover-of-carbs body. […]

Good Friday Sunsets

Predictable and stable, yet different every time. I can look at my phone and find out the exact minute it will fade into darkness. It’s never late. Never absent. Dependable and strong. No matter where you are in this world we all look at the same sun. There is something about knowing that which knits […]

Sweet 16

A couple weeks ago something terrible happened to my daughter. Brace yourself. Take a moment if you need. I don’t know how else to say it besides just coming right out with it: It was a Friday night and my teenage daughter had no plans. It was tragic. She had no other alternative but to […]

Broken and Crumbly

I woke up at 2am, heart pounding, sweating. It sounds like it could be a chapter opener from a cheap romance novel, but I am neither cheap nor romantic feeling at the moment. It could have been the pimento cheese sandwich and big piece of chocolate cake I ate before bedtime. Or it could have […]

Teenager Thrill Rides

Teenagers get a bad rap. It’s for good reason. I know, I have two of them. They live in a world of polar extremes. Their ever evolving brains make them predictably unpredictable. I’ll watch my teenage son and daughter, sitting shoulder to shoulder on the couch laughing together and this mama’s heart beams with joy. […]