Anxiety Attack Epiphany

A few days ago, first thing in the morning, I had my first ever anxiety attack.  I was sitting on the couch, eating my breakfast and watching the local news when my heart began racing. The Fitbit I was wearing on my wrist clocked that my heartrate…

Outwardly Calm, Inwardly Turbulent

Outwardly calm, inwardly turbulent.  I took this pic from the window of an airplane yesterday. It was a beautiful, mild, spring day with blue skies and a spackling of fluffy white clouds. The sky looked calm and peaceful, yet the flight was…

No Thanks I'm Just Not Interested

No thanks. I don’t want to join your Body Pump Class. I appreciate you thinking of me though. I’m sure it’s great. You’re great. I’m just not interested. I’m cool with yoga only because, for the most part, people keep their eyes…

It's Cold In Kentucky and I'll Be Okay

It’s cold in Kentucky. It’s cold all over this half of the country, but Kentucky is where I live and so I’m mostly pissed that it’s cold in Kentucky. Everything is frozen, even pipes.  Also, house breaking a new puppy while the ice…

Good Friday Sunsets

Predictable and stable, yet different every time. I can look at my phone and find out the exact minute it will fade into darkness. It’s never late. Never absent. Dependable and strong. No matter where you are in this world we all look at…

Sweet 16

A couple weeks ago something terrible happened to my daughter. Brace yourself. Take a moment if you need. I don’t know how else to say it besides just coming right out with it: It was a Friday night and my teenage daughter had no plans. It…

For Non-Perfect Family Thanksgiving Dinners:

I've hosted Thanksgiving dinner most years, since we've been married, for my husband's side of the family. I normally begin drinking around 11am when the turkey goes in the oven.  By the time 5pm rolls around we are both baked.    (Relax…

Broken and Crumbly

I woke up at 2am, heart pounding, sweating. It sounds like it could be a chapter opener from a cheap romance novel, but I am neither cheap nor romantic feeling at the moment. It could have been the pimento cheese sandwich and big piece…

Teenager Thrill Rides

Teenagers get a bad rap. It’s for good reason. I know, I have two of them. They live in a world of polar extremes. Their ever evolving brains make them predictably unpredictable. I’ll watch my teenage son and daughter, sitting shoulder…

Sorry For What I Said When It Was Humid

Last night, as I was preparing dinner, my 15-year-old daughter walked up to me and asked, “Mom, what is wrong with you? Don’t say “nothing”, just tell me what’s wrong.” I had to stop and take a deep breath, feeling bad that I…

Little Boy, Big Ideas

A few nights ago I was on the couch channel surfing for something good to watch on TV. There really are only three channels I watch. From the stories my mom tells, three channels is all she ever had growing up. I don’t feel sorry for her.…

Awkward Family Photos

I found this picture in a drawer this week. The other pictures from this vacation are all in a photo album. It was one of the last times I actually printed off pictures and put them in an album. Now most of my pictures live on jump drives and…

Simple Sisters

Last week I kept waking up feeling heavy. I’m not referring to the heavy from the unreasonable amount of carbs I indulged in recently. And seriously, it was an unreasonable amount. I have no self-control around a basket of warm, buttery…

Bad Chapters

We all have one. I have a few. It doesn't leave me feeling very good when I decide to go back and reread those bad chapters again in my mind, yet on some days I'll reread them over and over again. I'll relive their shame and sadness for absolutely…

Targeted

Social media has been abuzz lately over the issue of whether or not to allow transgender people to choose which public restroom to use according to the gender they identify with rather than the gender listed on their birth certificate. No…

Cloudy Confidence

I had one of those days where the big gray clouds of doubt started creeping in. I confided in a friend how inadequate I was feeling. I told her that I have a business degree, not an English degree. I have only ever worked in advertising not…

Dear 29 Year Old Me

Dear 29 year old me, You’re here! You didn’t think you’d live long enough to see 40, but unless something unforeseeable happens in the next few months you will be celebrating the big 4-0 this summer. You aren’t even bothered by it…

Tiny Purple Bikini

Sports Illustrated came in the mail at my house this week like always. This issue was the swimsuit issue. My husband says if there was a way he could opt out of that particular issue he would, but it comes with the subscription. He said…

Loving My Husband To Death

This morning was my bi-monthly hair appointment. I look forward to this appointment because no matter how hard I try my hair never looks more fabulous than when I’m walking away from my hair stylists chair. When I leave from there I’m…

No School Snow Day

My kids are home from school today because it snowed. Here in Kentucky it doesn’t require much snow fall to cancel school. They have cancelled school in the past when snow was predicted, before a single flake fell. I’m not complaining. …